Rodeo frequently the subject of my role in life. I do not think much about it, but it is something that is alive and present.
Sometimes I wonder, how far is worth living for sexual gratification ... Sometimes I think, if there would be more useful, or richer, more help and have much less ...
exactamene do not know what I want. But I always thought I wanted to be older, have more to give more.
My soul is filled with longing to fly ...
sometimes crosses my mind the idea of the release of my life for the greater good .... Do not say I'm dying for a cause, if not the opposite, to live for a cause ... But I do not know if that because there ...
Since childhood I felt that would be something big. Do not know what. I did not know when. S not yetdo not yet know when, still do not know whether I will or will not be ... Something big ... Maybe not a big deal historically speaking, perhaps not something popular ... But I always had the feeling that my role was part of a major step in achieving a greater good.
Perhaps it was only an illusion. My mother wanted a doctor, but I got an artist. Sometimes I would have been a doctor, rather than artist, but good.
Last night I dreamed I went back to Chile. My whole family was waiting for me, my parents, brothers, sisters, nieces ... It was like a small party full of joy at my arrival ... And everything was ready ...
I felt very happy to see you all ...
But after a while, I realized that my place did not seem to be there ... There I did not worklow, had no home, I had the experience I was looking for my life. I had my family, but I know I have my family that is independent of anywhere in the world and the non-world.
And I felt anxiety and did not understand why he had returned so soon. And I began to mourn. to wonder why he left such a good job in Brazil, a place so good with people as good ... Since not find one so there ... And cried and cried .... Until I woke up and knew I was not in Chile, but it still here ... The amazing thing is that I felt really relieved ... Relieved of my trouble.
I think I have tonsillitis.
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